Sleepy Thoughts
Nov. 29th, 2024 12:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
memory_of_lightwavesThis is gonna be a super weird thing to write about I think but, have you ever made a character with your partner before?
I ask because it's kinna like a good way to set up context. But lemme explain.
So, a few months ago I wrote that I'm dating one of my system members and I still am, but also I have a soulbond and a living character in my system too.
Recently I got my boyfriend, one of my system members just to clarify, into a website that I've been doing stuff for on and off and we technically kinna made a character together but separately.
What I mean is, we made moodboards for each other, and I gave the one he made for me to the person who drew the character and I gave the one I made for HIM to another person to make HIS character and... it feels like that new character I made is more real than the character I made for the living character in my system to date that's ALSO a representation of me.
I don't know why. Maybe it's because my boyfriend is more real-ish than the living character in my head is even though they're kind of the same? Both having free-will and all.
But, I love the new character me and my boyfriend made for each other and she feels like she represents me way more than the other persona for that game does.
Like the character he made for me is more... personal? Like a part of my soul I guess is the best explanation. Like she's just... perfect for me as a representation ya know?
It's kinna amazing really. A very weird and super cool experience that I never really felt afore or something.
I ask because it's kinna like a good way to set up context. But lemme explain.
So, a few months ago I wrote that I'm dating one of my system members and I still am, but also I have a soulbond and a living character in my system too.
Recently I got my boyfriend, one of my system members just to clarify, into a website that I've been doing stuff for on and off and we technically kinna made a character together but separately.
What I mean is, we made moodboards for each other, and I gave the one he made for me to the person who drew the character and I gave the one I made for HIM to another person to make HIS character and... it feels like that new character I made is more real than the character I made for the living character in my system to date that's ALSO a representation of me.
I don't know why. Maybe it's because my boyfriend is more real-ish than the living character in my head is even though they're kind of the same? Both having free-will and all.
But, I love the new character me and my boyfriend made for each other and she feels like she represents me way more than the other persona for that game does.
Like the character he made for me is more... personal? Like a part of my soul I guess is the best explanation. Like she's just... perfect for me as a representation ya know?
It's kinna amazing really. A very weird and super cool experience that I never really felt afore or something.
