A Jumbled Memory
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memory_of_lightwavesThis is kinda old now but I'm moving this from tumblr to here so, enjoy.
How do I even start this?
I feel weird today. Everything feels wrong and that I'm honestly not supposed to be here. But where I'm supposed to be is far away and I don't know how to get there.
I woke up this morning feeling like everything's just wrong. Stuff isn't right here.
I'm not supposed to look like this at all.
I should be shorter than this. Like, child-height. My arms are too long now, my claws are gone, and my legs are weird. I unno if they're supposed to be short or long but I know they're not normal feet. They're claws too but it's hard to explain them cause I feel like I can't compare them to an animal's.
Maybe my legs are short with how I walk and long with how I run?
My ears are weird. They're supposed to be wings with a hole in them. But they're tiny. Tiny holes. And we can hear things and feel things with them. I don't have a nose but I have nostrils.
I'm not supposed to be able to see but I can. I could kind of see but they were moving shadows. And I had more than two eyes. I had four.
I remember looking really creepy but I wasn't. I was actually a sweetheart. All of us were but we had to be creepy looking to scare away the humans who would wander into the forest.
We weren't allowed to leave ever but sometimes at night we would sneak out of out territory and have fun in the surrounding forest area and if we got caught we would just say we were patrolling. It was kind of both actually when you really think about it.
We didn't really have names for each other. They were kinna more like… titles? Labels? Like… I was called Little One cause I was small, and our parents were just Mom and Dad. I think some of us took names of pretty flowers or animals we liked though.
We were a hivemind but also kind of individual at the same time because we could do whatever we wanted until a human was seen in the forest then we immediately all had to leave and go find them to scare them away together in a planned attack.
The sun would hurt our eyes so during the day we were really deep in the forest where the light couldn't touch us but we could stare at fire. It would look like a dark silhouette though, just like everything else really.
I was small but I wasn't supposed to be but I liked being small. Even though the others said I was defective.
Everyone looked the same but different at the same time and we had a Queen that we called Mother but we had a King too! His name was Father.
I have scales but I don't think I have a tail though.
How do I even start this?
I feel weird today. Everything feels wrong and that I'm honestly not supposed to be here. But where I'm supposed to be is far away and I don't know how to get there.
I woke up this morning feeling like everything's just wrong. Stuff isn't right here.
I'm not supposed to look like this at all.
I should be shorter than this. Like, child-height. My arms are too long now, my claws are gone, and my legs are weird. I unno if they're supposed to be short or long but I know they're not normal feet. They're claws too but it's hard to explain them cause I feel like I can't compare them to an animal's.
Maybe my legs are short with how I walk and long with how I run?
My ears are weird. They're supposed to be wings with a hole in them. But they're tiny. Tiny holes. And we can hear things and feel things with them. I don't have a nose but I have nostrils.
I'm not supposed to be able to see but I can. I could kind of see but they were moving shadows. And I had more than two eyes. I had four.
I remember looking really creepy but I wasn't. I was actually a sweetheart. All of us were but we had to be creepy looking to scare away the humans who would wander into the forest.
We weren't allowed to leave ever but sometimes at night we would sneak out of out territory and have fun in the surrounding forest area and if we got caught we would just say we were patrolling. It was kind of both actually when you really think about it.
We didn't really have names for each other. They were kinna more like… titles? Labels? Like… I was called Little One cause I was small, and our parents were just Mom and Dad. I think some of us took names of pretty flowers or animals we liked though.
We were a hivemind but also kind of individual at the same time because we could do whatever we wanted until a human was seen in the forest then we immediately all had to leave and go find them to scare them away together in a planned attack.
The sun would hurt our eyes so during the day we were really deep in the forest where the light couldn't touch us but we could stare at fire. It would look like a dark silhouette though, just like everything else really.
I was small but I wasn't supposed to be but I liked being small. Even though the others said I was defective.
Everyone looked the same but different at the same time and we had a Queen that we called Mother but we had a King too! His name was Father.
I have scales but I don't think I have a tail though.
